The pace of my life is out of
control. I was running late to class tonight so I changed in the car. I
sped, checked my phone for directions to the house, slipped a leg in my
pants, changed lanes, accelerated, braked, accelerated, took a shortcut
on Kingshighway. It needs to slow down! I will never be able to fully
work on my issues if I don't… Something always comes up that stops me
from diving deeper, stopping me from creating or experiencing
consistency in words thoughts and actions. On a side note I made a new
friend tonight. His name is Nebu. He seems awesome. He talks calmly,
intently and soothingly. I hope that he does no get caught up in the
ridiculous pace of life for I think he will do some neat things. Pretty
interesting for the first real dialogue! The pace of my life is out of
control. I say it again. It is out of control. I am entertaining
discussion all the time of going off the grid to a place where I can
focus on solitude, focus on perfecting or pursing my perfection of love
for all the world. There are days when driving is my time to relax
because my next destination I will be doing a million things. That said,
sometimes I really like being busy. I feel like I make time for people.
I try to extend myself so they know that I love them,. Sometimes it
backfires though when I am running on empty and my compassion is
dwindling. God I do love my life though. I am so happy but I know that
there is more. I know I can be better. I can give more love but I will
only be able to do that if I work on me.
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