Friday, July 31, 2015

This Bright Other Thing
7/30/15

They say it is Romantic
Living on a farm—a dirty but clean profession.
     Yet every day paying attention to that fussy person—weather—
His demands for certain details to be attended to NOW—and well;
And then there is her whim to see to this, discard that, NOW.
Truly, it can become botheration.
     Sometimes I just want invisibility
Going at dusk with horses in the field
My gaze softens without intention or pretense.
My form fades slowly into the shroud of night.
     And then to awake—the farm calling me back
The rooster’s cry, his ransomed call:
“Look, the shiny thing in the grass
Or the sun’s reflection in a puddle
That bright orb in the donkey’s gaze
Or flecks of dust freed by
A hen’s persistent pecking.”
     “Dreams are what you awake from, even as
 The goat may sink into a noonday nap.”
     Things bright and present—
Just as they ever were.



Monday, July 27, 2015

I am an Outcast Qualified to Live Among My Dead
A Balanced Life
7/23/15

What has brought me to this place?
I can see myself tip-toeing along a tightrope.

I told the young girl cradled in my arms a formidable truth;
I told the young girl cradled in my arms that I had had a past in the circus;
That I had balanced atop the bare backs of elephants.
Through the soles of my feet I could feel the shifting of their weight
From hip to hip lumbering and predictable, adjusting in every step.
I had stood on galloping draft horses in the arena, grey ones, dappled.
I could adjust my weight accordingly as I rounded the circle
Leaning this way, then that, astute to their slightest vernacular.
And I had balanced myself on a bar held over a flaming fire, the bar held by
Two prepubescent boys ready to twitch or flinch or
 Be distracted at any moment by their diversions.

So, yes, the circus was where I learned to pass on something fine--
Even transcendent—even if it was all a lie.

The girl in my arms knew and didn’t care.
She willingly let me carry her up into the empty lot that few dared to cross.
She didn’t pull back when I showed her where the kitten had been snatched off the wire fence
Killed instantly by a dog.
She didn’t cry when I showed her where I had sat alone in a bramble
Waiting for some refreshing drink
Or even wild creatures to investigate.

I carried her through the dry, tall grasses
Now brittle from August’s toll:

Telling my tales all the way along
I was an outcast; the tales, lies.
She conferred a blessing on me, nonetheless.
In her mind I qualified to be resplendent--

To be present among my dead.

Please Bodhisattva

For All Allen Ginsbergs Everywhere

Oh Bodhisattva
I’m a slacker

Ach Bodhisattva
My mind sometimes is so many-pointed

Dear Bodhisattva
I’ve grown weary of always having an angle

Woe is me Bodhisattva
My middle name is “Scattered”

Gee Bodhisattva
It’s hard to cultivate loving-kindness for you know who

I know Bodhisattva
You won’t condemn me

Please Bodhisattva
May I approach you

Please Bodhisattva
May I bow and touch your feet

Please Bodhisattva
May I sit at your feet

Saturday, July 25, 2015

Words

i don't know big words
but I know how to make a sandwich
how to pack a lunch box
vanilla pudding
a spoon
a folded paper napkin
loving words
on a small square of orange paper

Thursday, July 23, 2015

The Way It Is

“Those honey-coloured ramparts at your ear”
Anicca, anicca
The life of the party
Anicca, anicca
20/20 vision
Anicca, anicca
BFF
Anicca, anicca
BMW
Anicca, anicca

Tuesday, July 21, 2015

Dandelion and Stone

alone
i sit

my boat
of dandelion
and stone

eyes shut
heart open

gravity
my faith

zealous sun
jealous moon

Unplayed Piano

Last week in class we read a poem by Alice Walker dedicated to Aung San Suu Kyi. Ron shared this song for our consideration.

Monday, July 20, 2015

Military Students Return by Lisa Bednar

There seems to be
More and more in college classrooms
Returning—many with eyes alert
With time management skills—diligent and ready.

(Some with PTSD or Moral Injury, yes).

One asked me, point blank
Was I trying to pick a fight with him?
Another could have been Mother Theresa
Her demeanor was so inclined that way.

Another felt he had dyslexia
Though he explained it was never properly diagnosed.
He kept a cheery countenance 
Was well liked by other students.
Though he could not write at all
It didn’t seem to bother him.

Sunday, July 19, 2015

Why I am a Rich Man by Martin Antonio Zaldivar

1) I have a capacity to love deeply and fully. I aspire to love selflessly, and I am surrounded by persons who have the same aspiration. 

2) I can and do question, refine, persuade, enliven, scream, comfort, share, educate, touch and decry with my voice. There is so much injustice. Fucking fuck fuck fuck! And there is so much strength! Yes, so much strength!

3) In closing my eyes I hear melody, and opening them, I see harmony. 

Friday, July 17, 2015

Freedom

waking

a smile
on your lips

the
sound of trees

through

an

open

window

do you know
you're a buddha

perfect
just as you are

Thursday, July 16, 2015

A Time I wasn't Silent by Lisa Bednar


A Kingdom for a Crown

Even before it happened I knew it would--  
I was nominated for Homecoming Queen Fall 1970.  
I sweat and festered, stewed and ranted, as
Dreams of thorny crowns were placed on my head
Gazing crowds staring me down in wonder
In horror 
I walked past shop windows, dummies cast in
Sequined gowns, gowns made of voile, satin
The kind of spider-web thin lace known as crewel embroidery
Could I carry it off?
Tenacious but revealing all the circulatory systems of the human body
In horror, blood cursing along. 

Tuesday, July 14, 2015

untitled letter written to alice walker during the first class

hey alice,

just want you to know that it’s way fuckin cool to hear your words aloud about letting women have their turn.

yer poem makes me feel SEEN..
yer poem makes me feel Acknowledged. 

i talked about it with tony and
it got those good tears coming,
the kind i get when i feel something so hugely and deeply t
hat it cannot stay inside me so it leaks out my eyes. 
it is a strange mixture of happiness and the deepest sorrow , for myself, for every girl who grows up shrinking back and saying ‘please.’

all the best people i know are women
all the hardest workers i know are women
all the most attractive people i know are women
all the emotional labor in all the world is carried by women
yer poem makes me feel seen

it makes me feel good that
it could be a bloodless coup:
that those men could offer the keys to the kingdom
gracefully, gratefully –
realize they need some of what we got.
this is what i want;
this makes me feel seen.

men, you should listen to dan savage
he gives love advice on the internet and he is not afraid of the sexuality of women and i remember this one call, this dude who wanted to make intercourse more pleasurable for his girlfriend:
every time he penetrates her, it’s painful and no one knows why but she struggles through it for him but it’s not sexy for anyone-
dude wants sex to be pleasurable for her, too, so he asks dan for help and dan says

stop trying to shove your dick inside her.




don’t know where all that goes
but i know it’s connected
and feeling very grateful

to feel invincible via ms alice walker.

Why Am I Crying

because
this morning
i woke my daughter
with a kiss on the forehead
and she once again
felt like my little girl

because
this morning
i said goodbye
to my son
and i don't know when
i'll see him again

because
this morning
i saw a man
holding a small cardboard sign
that read
please help
and i didn't know how

because
my children
are better at forgiveness
than i am

because
i felt the need
to apologize

Monday, July 13, 2015


On a Sunday Afternoon

Carolyn Glasford Wallach
Sitting in Cafe Ventana
With Mark and Lisa
Chinese poets, literature, and
the state of the world
"Your life is your religion"
Who said that?
The Dalai Lama?
No, my mother



Chris



"People Know My Lai"


Cal wrote to Carla Nguyen and me in an email:
"People know My Lai
(Or they think they do)
People over 60 or so
Remember the name Calley

But what about the others?
I don’t mean the other men
That joined Calley in the killing
I mean all the other villages we wiped out
I don’t just mean wiped out

By the grunts on the ground
I mean wiped out from above
By the pilots who didn’t get any blood on their hands
But sure as shit
Killed way more Vietnamese than Americal did

An Arrest by Lisa Bednar


Grandma's Oil Paintings by Lisa Bednar


Saturday, July 11, 2015

Why Is the Child Crying

why is the child crying
touch her hand
is she you

aren't all children crying
for a meal
a word
a smile

tell me
what brought you here
love
fear
uncertainty

can i help you get back home

are you my child
i see it in your eyes
i thought you'd left

can i help you get back home

but how

Wednesday, July 1, 2015

On Diane di Prima (Again)

for Danielle Mackey, Katie Madges,  Katie Consamus, Magan Wiles ... New Yorkers all

As some of you know, I have recently taken to the writing of Diane di Prima. You know this because I’ve called your attention to one or another of her poems that I love (Life Chant, Where Are You, Clearing the Desk, Keep the Beat) and her incendiary collection, Revolutionary Letters. This week I want to call attention to her memoir, Recollections of My Life as a Woman. Over 400 pages, it covers her early life to the later 1960s (she’s still alive, but I doubt that there’s a volume two coming). For my younger women friends who’ve grown up thinking “I can do whatever I want,” di Prima’s book will give you some historical perspective. For anyone in the various fields of art, Recollections will inspire you on your path (her sheer tenacity). For writers in their 20s or in their 70s, di Prima will remind you of what you need to hear.

Di Prima is calmly blunt, reminding me of Allen Ginsberg’s maxim, “Candor ends paranoia.” On male violence: “When I got older, what I heard from lovers, was that I was a controlling or castrating bitch. But—the assault was universal and ceaseless. You would have to be dead not to try to stop it for a minute.” Her Italian father: “If you were Italian, growing up in my house, your father handed you Machiavelli to read. To help you understand history, he told you. One of the only books he had besides Shakespeare and the encyclopedia. He read you Julius Caesar to show you how Mark Antony manipulated the crowd. What propaganda was. You never forgot.” On college: “I have no problem with leaving school. It is a hated and unfulfilling place, where I am studying nothing I care about. Where there are no powerful women teachers. No powerful teachers at all. No ideals, intensity of intellectual life. Nothing I’d hoped for. I am more than ready to leave, to get on with my life. Wherever it might take me.” What she never said to her mother: “Dear Mom … When are you going to tell me what was stolen from you? When will you name your oppressor?”