Early morning walk
on Naperville-Wheaton Road
I see this collection of signs:
One caught my eye
Power Yoga
Power Yoga?
Of course
Power Yoga!
A place to share our writing and keep the spirit of the class alive outside of the usual meeting time.
Tuesday, May 26, 2015
Thursday, May 21, 2015
A Short Digression While Discussing a Tolstoy Story
At McGurks I asked Siobhán, “Did I ever tell you about the ‘Meanwhiles?’”
“I don’t think so.”
“Back in the days and nights
When The Book of Mev wasn’t The Book of Mev
(I was calling it The Holy Contour of Life)
I asked an acquaintance
A published writer
If he would read the manuscript
And give me some of his seasoned advice
“I don’t think so.”
“Back in the days and nights
When The Book of Mev wasn’t The Book of Mev
(I was calling it The Holy Contour of Life)
I asked an acquaintance
A published writer
If he would read the manuscript
And give me some of his seasoned advice
Saturday, May 16, 2015
Gratitude/728
This weekend is commencement
Each day is commencement
Each hour is commencement
I've known you
Twenty months
May I know you twenty more
Wednesday, May 6, 2015
On being broken
I am broken to my core,
Yet I have never woken up feeling so whole.
I am confused about life,
Yet I am left wildly embracing the mystery of it.
I am profusely sweating from every pore of my being,
Yet I am profoundly refreshed to the depths of my soul.
I am in a place where beauty and brokenness co-exist,
Trying to understand my place in all of this,
Trying to touch the sacredness of “this”
I am trying to feel what matters here…
That feeling the presence of Fahima’s prophesying matters
That Karief remembering sight words matter
That Nadia letting go of being shy and shaking it in zumba class matters
That hearing gun shots down the street as “too close” matters
That J.R, Angel and their crew in the mango tree at lunch time matters
That driving Fadda’s truck through potholed lanes with Jaiden, Phil and
Tati matter
That finding peace peering through broken things…gap toothed smiles,
holes in the sidewalk and through open windows matters
And I too want to matter here
But… realizing that I am only one of many matters most of all.
I am trying to understand what this is all about…
About seeing raw humanity beyond homes, clothes and smells
About scooting chairs so that everyone can
come sit at the table
About being governed by courage rather than
fear
About a love that doesn’t condemn
About praying off my knees and praying with
my life
About struggling to keep order in the classroom
About breaking bread and breaking
expectations
About the pulses within, and feeling them
About letting life grasp me
About being sweaty, wiping it off and getting more sweaty
About trying to read the sky when I am
feeling lost
About feeling home in once strange arms
It’s about these fleeting
moments of life here
Its about two years and being
birthed a new each day
It’s about struggling less
and less for the idea of this all, but about more and more for people
It’s not about saving and
doing, but about being and being saved
It’s about being one tiny
factor of all this
And it’s about understanding
that all of this is greater than me
Monday, May 4, 2015
By Looking There
by looking there
i found them
hear
their words
perfectly imperfect
permission
true love transforms
the reflected
Friday, May 1, 2015
Gracias
for every good thing
I give thanks
for snow covered mountains
I give thanks
for aspens quaking in the fall wind
I give thanks
for flowing water
stony brooks
and roaring waves
I give thanks
for thunder and lightening
for wind and rain
I give thanks
for camping alone on the Great Plains
I give thanks
for being
for birth and for death
I give thanks
for love, lust and loss
for beginnings and endings
for words on paper
and words falling from the mouths of friends
I give thanks
for laughter and happiness
for the morning sun and the evening moon
for mosses and ferns and liverworts
I give praiseful thanks
and count them as blessings
for babies and children
for snotty-nosed teenagers
and angry rioters who call for us to see
I give thanks
for mothers and fathers
who are here or not here
for cousins near and far
I give thanks and cherish their memory
for those who have taught me
for Tina, for Mark, for Tom
for my sister who calls to me
for the joy of aloneness
for the sadness of aloneness
for the closeness of others
for the distance of many
for the miles that are near and the miles that separate
I give thanks
for the open-hearted of the world
for the closed and fearful
for the dreamers lying in the open fields
and for the students in their classrooms
I give thanks each day
for those who suffer, who are abandoned
for the sick and the dying
for the scorned and the desolate
I wish hope and peace
may all hearts be opened
may all minds love the search for truth
may all bodies be at rest
for all of this I yearn
for all blessings I am grateful
5/26/15
I give thanks
for snow covered mountains
I give thanks
for aspens quaking in the fall wind
I give thanks
for flowing water
stony brooks
and roaring waves
I give thanks
for thunder and lightening
for wind and rain
I give thanks
for camping alone on the Great Plains
I give thanks
for being
for birth and for death
I give thanks
for love, lust and loss
for beginnings and endings
for words on paper
and words falling from the mouths of friends
I give thanks
for laughter and happiness
for the morning sun and the evening moon
for mosses and ferns and liverworts
I give praiseful thanks
and count them as blessings
for babies and children
for snotty-nosed teenagers
and angry rioters who call for us to see
I give thanks
for mothers and fathers
who are here or not here
for cousins near and far
I give thanks and cherish their memory
for those who have taught me
for Tina, for Mark, for Tom
for my sister who calls to me
for the joy of aloneness
for the sadness of aloneness
for the closeness of others
for the distance of many
for the miles that are near and the miles that separate
I give thanks
for the open-hearted of the world
for the closed and fearful
for the dreamers lying in the open fields
and for the students in their classrooms
I give thanks each day
for those who suffer, who are abandoned
for the sick and the dying
for the scorned and the desolate
I wish hope and peace
may all hearts be opened
may all minds love the search for truth
may all bodies be at rest
for all of this I yearn
for all blessings I am grateful
5/26/15
secrets
I could tell you all my secrets
(if I could remember them)
after all, secrets are put aside
secreted in that dark side of our souls
do you know your secrets?
my secrets began with my entry into the world
my longing for touch
for being held
do you know your secrets?
wishing to be held
longing to be held, but not held
I fell into a box which I myself created
do you know your secrets?
and in this box of longing
I watched the world pass by
and allowed myself to be a victime of the world
do you know your secrets?
I am not asking for pity
I am just relating the facts
this is what happened in the beginning
do you, you yourself, know your secrets?
and then with the force of habit, it continued
there are people I have longed for
but I have kept it a secret, hidden, of necessity
do you know your secrets?
being dissatisfied, is it possible to love?
or am I forever searching for a closeness which may or may not be love?
I have been wrapped in the cloak of feeling smitten with lust
do you know your own secrets?
I cannot say smitten with love because I do not know what love is
I only know what longing is
that is my secret.
do you know your own secrets?
do you own your secrets?
your secrets may lead you to a place you've never been.
do you know your secrets?
4/19/15
(if I could remember them)
after all, secrets are put aside
secreted in that dark side of our souls
do you know your secrets?
my secrets began with my entry into the world
my longing for touch
for being held
do you know your secrets?
wishing to be held
longing to be held, but not held
I fell into a box which I myself created
do you know your secrets?
and in this box of longing
I watched the world pass by
and allowed myself to be a victime of the world
do you know your secrets?
I am not asking for pity
I am just relating the facts
this is what happened in the beginning
do you, you yourself, know your secrets?
and then with the force of habit, it continued
there are people I have longed for
but I have kept it a secret, hidden, of necessity
do you know your secrets?
being dissatisfied, is it possible to love?
or am I forever searching for a closeness which may or may not be love?
I have been wrapped in the cloak of feeling smitten with lust
do you know your own secrets?
I cannot say smitten with love because I do not know what love is
I only know what longing is
that is my secret.
do you know your own secrets?
do you own your secrets?
your secrets may lead you to a place you've never been.
do you know your secrets?
4/19/15
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